A couple of times I have had the sense that trying to be like others as far as prayer goes is not what God wants from me. Today in the little book “Jesus Calling” “when you let others expectations drive you, you scatter your energy in the winds. I am your Master and I do not drive you to be what you are not. Your pretense displeases Me, especially when it is in my “service.” Now I know that this is only a book, but sometimes it seems as though it does have a message for me. I have tried so hard to be prayerful. To be honest I don’t know what that means. I have tried the Liturgy of the Hours and discarded it because it was so long. I have tried the Magnificat prayers but even those don’t seem right. They give an outline of something – maybe it is the outline that I should follow. I just don’t know.